As I browse my notes, the years parade by, with all their memories (good and bad)....
There were times, in the beginning, when I worried too much and wondered too much if I was doing the right thing - those new and floundering homeschool mommy doubts.
Then came the in-between years where homeschool burn-out threatened. I LOVED teaching. However, it seemed every time I turned around we faced one challenge after another. At times I grew weary. Part of me actually looked longingly ahead to the day I handed out that last diploma and 'got my life back'. There's some hard truth. But then God's Word to persevere and Charlotte Mason's inspiration to teach gently - life began to get better!
I had so much fun teaching (though quaking at times) through elementary. Art projects and easy-going days because, after all, it was all due to repeat... so if we missed reducing fractions or how a butterfly's wings worked.... no big deal, it would come back around.
Now we are in the days of 'last-chance'. If it isn't taught NOW then, *GASP*, they will graduate not knowing the thing... scary.
Yet, the more I push through this high school homeschool track, the more I love it too. We can still do art projects and have easy-going days, the context is just different. I don't mind the 'pressure' of 'last chance' so much anymore: it creates drive for us all.
I have come to love the challenge of this stage, and the many ways teaching grows me.
I'm so grateful God called me to teach my children so very many years ago. From the early days of guiding them in learning numbers, letters, and how to read, all the way to handing that first homeschool diploma to my older daughter last year. And while I didn't homeschool my oldest son outside of preschool, now 23 (see bio) watching his University Graduation this year opened my eyes to the horizon of new and different things just a short distance away.
|(Planning from the couch this year to keep a damaged and wrapped ankle propped and healing!)|
As I move through the texts and dream of how we can explore the content, I also prepare to really soak up every moment of every day God blesses me with teaching my charges. It isn't just about what we learn from our books, it is also about leaving high school prepared, and wanting, to keep learning.
I will miss the mess of planning month with papers and books sprawled everywhere. I will miss the 'busy' of homeschooling days (even the struggling ones!) when they are gone. More than mere words can describe. I.will.miss.these.days.
For all you homeschool mamas out there... whether you are just starting out, or an old hat with years under your belt... I pray you would treasure each moment (even the hard ones). Keep your eyes on Jesus and the God who called you to be "mom". Be strengthened in the Spirit to persevere and treasure this season of life God has blessed you with... even on the hard days, it IS a blessing! It may not seem like it now, but you will miss these days!
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